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This is a dream, seriously!

I just love waking up from a very unusal dream due to the Sustiva, that is found in my medication.

Yesterday- I woke up from a dream where Sandra Bullock was my cousin and she was a tran sexual, and amid our family nonsence i had to help "her" in the shower and clean herself out. So if that wasnt unusal enough after she gets dressed and we head out to search for a India filmstar whose name is Armni Gold, who is apparently some well to do person with connections in who's who of the "biz", not sure what kind of "biz" it was but it was big, and then i woke up.

Today- This one is seriously f'ed up! I dreamt that I was being chased by a giant Oreo cookie that was apparently mad at me for choicing Chips Ahoy over his brand amid a "snow" blizzard. The "snow" was frosting flakes and it made a weird splat sound whenever i stepped onto it on the ground. So as i was running away from the giant cookie, i dove into a pile of "snow" where i fell into the Keebler elfs factory and I joined their crew to help make a hybrid cookies that was a cross between "captured" angry Oreo cookies and Chips Ahoy! the end result was a cookie that was the holy grail of all cookies. Side Note- the Keebler elfs factory was considered the "underground sweatshop" of cookie factories, but they were more than happy to be there doing experiments on other cookies. Like i said, this is seriously twisted!
Here are some pics that i took myself. I was playing around with my ipod, a mirror, and my camera phone and a really dark room. Hope you like them as much as i do.











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Writer's Block: Hard habit to break

Do you have any bad habits that negatively impact your life? Are you trying to overcome them or have you learned to live with them? How do they affect you on a daily basis?

Are you kidding me? My life IS a bad habit, i just find ways to invert it! No seriously, yes there are alot of bad habits that i have recently came into, and Im trying my damnedest to over come them. I know I can, if i can over come a addiction to alcohol, by going to consiling then i can overcome this shit that has caused me great pain, such as mood swings and the fact that i lost myself some years ago. There are many things that i still do that are too true to me that some find it to be that im adapting others traits. When in all reality, im just merely trying  to re-capture the trait in which a part of me has lost and i miss. But yes, even that is a bad habit in itself, because there are times when i adapt too much of a persons trait, it really does seem like i am trying to be them and not myself. So for now on, this is going to be ME, and not what others think i should be or what i think others want me to be. This is MY life and no one else's, its time to take the bull by the horns and ride that bitch to the grave! Its going to be a struggle, but what in life isnt a struggle? So bring on the shit, and stand back and watch me overcome it with amazement and grace.
What is the one simple indulgence you could never live without? Would you consider giving it up permanently for any amount of money?

Music, plain and simple. No, because it is everywhere, its even inside your head, when you dont even know it!

The Accused

There is nothing worse than being accused of doing or saying something that you know damn well that you didnt do or say. I find myself in that same position and Im seriuosly thinking about  just cutting my loses. I dont need the guilt trips and i dont need to be put through being down played to make someone else feel better, that shit is so high school its not even funny anymore. I mean i am absolutly LIVEDED about this. I know what I said and Im sticking to it, its not getting brushed under the rug and forgotten about, hell no. Its too big to be ignored. I wish there was a way for me to know EXACTLY what was said to him, word for word, but I can't even get that much out of him. I am being given the silent treatment and that shit dosent sit with me, specially since i know i didnt say what i am being accused of. How can you talk to someone who wont talk to you? Is there a way? Or do i just cut my loses and go on with my life pretending this never happened or what? I don't know what to do, Im so pissed off that Im crying over this. If you know me, you know it take ALOT to get me to that point.

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The Last of the Vampires!

No, this isn't another installment of a Ann Rice novel, sorry if i got your hopes up. But Im excited to announce that as of this morning, I have finished my LAST night on graveyard. Thank the holy and everything that makes the world turn! I have been on the graveyard shift since last may, and I never got adjusted to the sleep schedule. So come Monday I will now be working 8am to 4pm  off and on and on some days 4pm to midnight. with having alternate days and weekends off. Im soo excited! The change came with the transfer of an employee and her shift came available, so I put in a shift transfer and within the same day, it was granted! Like Whoa! So now, i can crack open my drapes and let the sunshine in and finally get some color back into my skin. Cause lord knows my skin has drained the color out of it, Im almost transparent! My ancestors would cry if they saw how pale i am, I have never been this pale in my entire life. DIe Vampire, Die! LOL

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